I’m queer.
I’m a feminist.
And I’m not good at what I do.
I’m bisexual.
Pansexual.
Queer.
All of these I’ll answer to,
But I prefer the final best.
I haven’t made it past the third episode of The L Word.
Kate Moennig was too much for me.
I stopped myself from watching.
I nipped my obsession in the bud.
I nurse my crushes on men,
Allow them to grow and flourish,
Because people stomach it better
When I fangirl in hetero.
I like to consider myself an activist.
I engage in feminist discourse.
But my voice is strongest in keyboard clicks,
And far too quiet in person.
I worry I’m pressing the wrong issues.
Or not raising the ones that need it.
I’m willing to say #myfavesareproblematic,
But I don’t easily let them go.
My feminism has become #feminism.
#blacklivesmatter
#translivesmatter
#rapecultureiswhen
And I don’t think it’s #enough.
Many people can claim the same identifiers --
And many of them do.
I’m queer.
I’m a feminist.
And I’m not good at what I do.