“Forgive and forget”

I heard often growing up

From the mouth of the man

Whose blood is also mine

But what he did I won’t forgive

And only a lobotomy

Could make me forget

But I do forgive you, my friend

The guy everyone swore I’d marry

For saying things that triggered me

Before either of us knew what that meant

And I’m happy you’ve found someone else

Because I never really wanted to be with you

And I forgive you, my best friend

For leaving me behind

But I also thank you for the same 

Because falling for a straight girl

Was the worst thing I could do

Last of all, I must forgive myself

For always questioning who I am

And wondering if my queerness

Is a real thing

My father, I can’t forgive you

My friends, I won’t forget you

My heart, I will learn to heed you